I like puns way too much to resist this new naming scheme. The week before last was pretty slow, but last week had a lot happen. I’m going to get the good news out of the way right away. But also going to maintain this new patch note meme.

I was planning to post on the weekend, but unfortunately on Friday night, I cracked a tooth. I ended up spending most of the weekend on pain killers.

Went to the dentist yesterday, have another appointment today, but things are under control now. It’s just a matter of getting tooth repair(hopefully) done. Dentist was optimistic that the tooth could be saved.

Been a bit busy this week with life stuff. Some family drama had me dropping my plans to go help my parents out with their hoarding issue, for two weekends in a row. I’ve bought a few clothes items, but I’ve spent way too much mons in the last couple weeks and need to slow down a bit. I’m shopping around for laser hair removal as that’s my priority. I’m really struggling to keep my face and neck hair under control, even with daily shaving. I don’t even want to attempt to pass until I can have a smooth face for more than a few hours. I’ve been practicing with makeup, but even with that, it’s still pretty obvious up close. Like, I would pretty much need to shave mid-day to keep up appearances.

Hey all. First therapy appointment in a couple of hours. Feeling a bit weird in general. Had a bit of a bad night and it took me a bit to process my emotions. It’s kinda dumb, because it wasn’t related to any sort of dysphoria stuff. Just a bad social interaction. I need to write my thoughts down to get through my emotional state. I went to sleep and it’s still kinda bothering me.

Last couple days have been a bit busy. After my bad day, I took Sunday to just kinda relax and vibe. I slowed down on my shaving stuffs. I did my makeup on Sunday before my friends came over. I’ve ordered a couple more things. My updates may become less frequent going forwards. But hey. I still plan to drop them. Like I said in my original post, this is for me to track my journey, and hopefully for other eggs to crack that are in a situation similar to me. I really needed a positive example that shared a body type like mine(Tall, hirsuite, and overweight). This is also why I plan to share pictures at some point. But I’m still uncomfortable in my skin.

Yesterday was ass.

Voice practice has become a core part of my day. Will likely be that way for a while until I can get my voice perfect? Nah, to my satisfaction. I made a lot of progress today. It feels like it’s coming surprisingly easy. But it might just be the headspace I’m in and the process I'm using.

I realized that I just kinda ended my first post. I should probably do like outros or something. But I think it’s better if I don’t go back and edit them. These are mainly meant to be a flow of thought. I really only edit to remove redundancy. I don’t want to repeat myself in a redundant manner. I’m gonna think about that while I write this one.

The last few days have kinda been a flurry. I’m full of energy, super excited and motivated. I’m waking up feeling good. Excitedly checking on shipping status for items. I’ve already decided, I’m going to come out to my RL friends before the weekend. They come over on a weekly basis, and I don’t want to go through the effort of hiding makeup and stuff. Plus I know they’re chill and likely won’t care. Pretty sure people are going to start asking about it quickly because of my topics today.

I decided that I wanted to start an online journal. Not sure how much I’ll share it, or how much I’ll actually post. But I want to write about how I feel a little more and throw it out into the ether. It’s really just going to be a stream of thoughts, so I don’t begrudge anyone who decides to stop reading. This first one is gonna be long, because really, this journey started last year. But there’s been a huge leap forward that I’ll get to at the end.